Ramblings of an SCUM

Damn quitting smoking ain't as easy as i thought it might be. 5 days, read F.I.V.E days after my misguided and very much biased decision to quit smoking, I popped 1 of 'em lovely sticks of lung candies into my lips and puffed again. I mean I din have a valid reason to quit. Can someone tell me indefinitely I'll die from lung cancer? Health hazard possibly, cause of death for this nincompoop, remotely possible. I dun even mind dying, c'mon when its time to go, its time to go. Next most oft cited reason for quitters, the unwillingness to adversely affect the health of loved ones who doesn't smoke. Everyone I know smokes, ok make that almost everyone I know smokes. I dun love a whole lot of ppl anyway, and usually I'm pretty considerate as to where and when I light up. Ciggies cost too much. I can afford 'em soooo......NEXT!!!!! As one can now absolutely see, I have no reasons whatsoever to embark on this arduous and thankless mission.

After I so meekly succumbed to the alluring temptation 6 days ago, I'm now on day 5 of my hiatus from nicotine. Misguided though the decision may be, but after I've so publicly announced my will to quit, I see it fit to make good my word. Absurd the idea may be, forming a paradox of sorts, it's actually now a legit reason for me to quit. I'm quitting because I said so, and this shall be my pillor of strength to accomplish this task of mammoth proportions.

And lastly a word of thanks to my wonderful crew who had managed one way or another to successfully dissuade this weak-willed vermin to smoke for the past 4 days. Terima Kasih yah?

I've been flirting with the possibility to actually quit smoking for the month past, and was however unable to find substantial enough a reason to do so. The last time I managed to quit smoking for a significant period was during my jc days. There was never any doubt that i would triumph over nicotine in that instance. While accompanying THE ONE GODDESS home after some harebrained class activities/outing, crossing the overhead bridge at Hougang Ave 3, THE ONE GODDESS asked if I smoke, possibly detecting the scent of cigarettes on me. Her prior remonstrance against her brother's smoking habits wasn't unnoticed, thus setting me up for one big fat lie. In truth, lie this young man did not for he had decided for kicking the habit when THE ONE GODDESS indicated her distaste for smokers. I told her that I used to smoke but had since quitted, I just didn't tell her that I quitted 5 minutes ago. I didn't had another puff for the next 2 years.

The habit came back after through the miracles of modern grapevine, I came to know that THE ONE GODDESS was romantically attached to the luckiest guy alive. "WHAT FOR?" kept ringing in my head, and despair soon drove me back to my puffing days which continued to this day.

I HAVE DECIDED TO QUIT SMOKING
No, THE ONE GODDESS have not managed to purge the cancer from her life which might allure me to sink deeper into my veneration and contrive to decieve myself to the possibility of marital bliss which should follow the banishment of smoking. Neither has my previous convictions been swayed, where afterall there was no good reason for me to quit.
Her name is Joebelle, the girl that caused me much pique the past 2 months and a dead ringer for THE ONE GODDESS. She told me to stop smoking, and I shall comply. Not so much with hope to successfully woo her for she's way outta my league, I mean what chance do a guy like me have with a girl like her, where she's beauty personified and I'm just me. More so because it represents a valid reason to quit. Judging by the way I was fixated and staring blankly into her eyes the whole night last night, instincts tells me I'm in trouble unless I extradicate myself quickly. Fanatical worshipping of one unattainable goddess is bad and painful enough, two would be plain suicidal. I would probably never lay sight on her again and it's a thought that's not unbearable hitherto, although the same cannot be said if I continue to immerse myself in her company. I'll probably die if I'll never be able to see THE ONE GODDESS again ever.
I HAVE QUITTED SMOKING.Trust me,

Still remember the days when I would religiously be seated in front of the tele every monday nite catching the latest episode of the sitcom Friends, and tonite, the first time for the longest time I caught the show again.
I remember the gripping finale of the first season, and the twist, turns and tribulations of the many seasons to follow, and finally ten years have came to pass.
And tonite David Schwimmer AKA Ross in the show said,"I dun wanna get over her!"
As the tenth year of my infatuation looms in the horizon, neither do I.